Well, I guess today is just one of those days I need to vent in a healthy way.

For starters, I`ve been contemplating what I really want in life. After a lot of thought, what I want is what all people want. Freedom.

But in a way, I`ve always had Freedom. Freedom isn`t the ability to do whatever you want, whenever you want, without having to worry about the consequences, it`s the ability to choose what you want to do, and the strength to live with those consequences no matter the outcome or how hard the path is. But I fear I may not have this strength of will, as my first instinct in any situation so far is to run. Sure I may face a task at hand and do it, but that`s to get it done so I can move on and keep on running.

Does this make me lazy? Does it make me a bad person? The latter, no, the former, probably. But I think we all want that freedom to run free wherever we choose, just not without those strings attached.

And I was also informed I went through $800 in a very short time. I mean, I didn`t even have an idea I went through that much money! How does a guy do that, especially since I`m usually much better with money than that?!

*sigh*

This isn`t going to stop me from working on my projects in my spare time, but it might slow me down a bit. School is doing enough of that already, especially with all the stuff I`ve been going through as of late. I`m going to try to take a step back and chill, but I have obligations to others and to myself, so it might not happen.

This is SoraWolf7, signing off.